To begin, "We survived the end of the world" I didn't believe it would happen but we did experience a powercut(exactly as me and one of my friends had joked would happen). At that point, I thought it was real.
Some people prefer to stand out and some prefer to find a space in the background. I would say I'm not shy around people I know or in a situation I'm comfortable in but with people-even classmates-who I don't know well, I feel uncomfortable. I like to achieve in school and get high-marks, a sure perfectionist. My work has to be neat or it faces being thrown into the bin by a stressed-out thirteen year-old. I like being singled-out to take up an opportunity in school but in other circumstances I could break-down. If there's something I'm definitely not, it's confident. Unlike others, I do my best to stay in the background unless It's for something that no one will find 'nerdy'. I've been name-called in school and it definitely knocks your confidence.
I keep quiet in lessons, head down, do the work and engage in the occasional whisper to a friend sitting next to me or turning around to quickly chat to someone behind me. Passing a piece of paper around to have a conversation but not dragging a teacher's attention towards us. Even digging in my bag and taking out a book to read. While others, they show-off and be rude, act a lot younger than they are just to become the class-clown and raise their popularity. They are the one's who want to stand-out. Who don't care what the teachers think of them, or about their levels, or frankly what their friends think: all that matters is that they are getting noticed by the group that are 'most well-known' or 'cool'
Sometimes, it feels like I've been too quiet. That I should speak-up in other situations so my opinion comes across. It's good and bad to stand-out because in the future, it's going to be the only way to get work or earlier than that, be offered a place in college or university. People who are noticed, they're not afraid to be their selves. Is it that I'm not comfortable with who I am? I'm not sure but I think it's more the lack in confidence and the fear of standing up for myself. It's not something to be teased for though because you do find this a lot. That the people in the class who are naturally quiet will get targeted. That the people who stand-out for being smart will get name-called. The people who are arrogant seem to think if they stand-out they are above us so can talk to us like they are. I just prefer to stay in the background at times. Simple enough.
I prefer to stand back when possible but then be recognised for the good things. I'm not confident, never will be, but I would like to be able to share the fact I love books and want to be a writer without being sniggered at. Using a good book quote "There will come a time when you have to take to the dance floor" - The Perks of Being a Wallflower. But at the moment, I'm happy being a 'Wallflower'. Who still hasn't seen the film despite how many times she has seen the trailer.
*The picture used in this post does not belong to me*
Is standing-out from the crowd a good thing?
Do you prefer to stay in the background at times?