Blogging is not a game of Hide 'N' Seek - as I don't want anybody that I know to find me. I like to blog knowing that none of my school friends are reading my posts, leaving comments and following my blog's Twitter account, where I spend most of my time talking about books, and their adaptations. Only a few of my closest friends know that I run a blog - as I like sharing some of the good things that have happened with them - and even less know the name, so hardly anyone is actually able to find it. Apart from that, there's my Year Nine English teacher. I think. This got me thinking. Why do we bloggers hide? Is it because we are fearful of what others will think if they find out we blog about books? As that mocking is still there. Is it because we are worried about getting awful comments? Is it because we act differently when we are online, we have more confidence to share our views and likes/dislikes without the judgement of those that know us? These are just a few of the things that are very true for me. Should what somebody else thinks matter, though? Shouldn't we feel comfortable to share our blog, and hope that the people we see would support us? Sadly, this isn't the case for a lot of us.
|We are not the only people who like to hide - are we?|
Picture from the Telegraph.
I find the prospect of having anyone from school reading my blog extremely daunting. It's a scary thought, especially as I have discussed some personal-issues such as bullying on this blog. I was a completely different person in school when I began writing this blog: unconfident, quiet, nervous. I was just beginning to 'come out of my shell' but would have never been able to do some of the things I volunteer to do now(like teach a lesson). With the freedom to say what I want, and write about my interests, knowing that the pressure to 'fit-in' wasn't - and still isn't - there, as with school it is, I've been able to become the type of person I want to be. If people from school were reading this blog, I wouldn't feel like I could be myself. I'd have to be careful about what I say so, I don't come across as 'weird' to them. I hide behind a screen as I like being able to live a Hannah Montana life - just without the fashionable clothing, adoring fans and bright-lights. Which I don't mind not having!
One of the main reasons I don't make Youtube videos and set up a channel like Amber and Lucy have done, is because I'm worried about getting laughed at. I know some people would be happy for me, and would love the fact I'm running this blog in my own corner of the internet, but others wouldn't be. I'm sure people wouldn't be outright horrible to me - but, I'm not sure they would be supportive either. The few people I've told, they have been harsh at times, insulting the things I have done because of this blog. Some have also outright said they, "Don't care" and ignored me when I've started to speak about books and blogger. The fact that I may get not-so-nice comments, and then I could end up annoying people to the point where I have nobody to talk to, makes me want to keep this blog hidden. I'm not saying, by far, I haven't showed somebody my blog and have had a positive reaction. There have been some great reactions, some people have been proud but, I'd rather not risk it.
I know I can't hide forever. There's going to be a time where I'm going to need to share this blog, or I will want to start posting videos, or doing a job that involves books everyday. For now though, with the stresses of GCSEs and school, I think I just need somewhere to post about the things that I like to enjoy, and also discuss opinions that I wouldn't speak about to friends. I care a lot about what people think about me, and that's one of the main reasons I hide.
I want to know, as I blogger, why you hide. You may not - and if you don't, tell me why you like sharing your blog. I know a lot of bloggers that hide because they need that escapism from school - where there's teenage girls who just don't get-along.
Why do you hide? Why don't you hide?
Tell me in the comments!